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This is going to be a long one
cause i am going to tell you abit about real live stuff that happend and about my art
and what will become next year
so lets beginning
let first start about the bad things that happend or at least things that wasnt fun
-As most of you all know by now in sept i switch art teachers cause the one i had before kinda wasn,t really teaching me anything usefull she is probley really good at what she does with adults and stuff but it didn,t work for me thats also why ....
at the first 2 months of the year (when i was struggle to learn abit of the basic anatomy)i got kinda yelled at by my dad saying that i never will be a great artist like artists on deviantart and that they all are born with naturel talent and that it was just impossible to get as good as them.
yeah i was heart broking when i hear him yell at me like that(my parents don,t support me as a artist instead they keep telling me i won,t be as good as all the other artists here) i struggled the next view month not to give up and to keep going with doing art even thought i kinda felt like giving up after what my dad had dumped on me. But when we hit march thats when i really after easter try to get improve my art(i know that i am still not very good at what i do and that probley pro artists still see my as a newbie who,s art sucks) but i am at least glad i improve
-The reason i started to get more serious about art after easter was cause i got abandon just before easter.
Last year 2015 somewhere in July i met this girl at where i work and she like anime and manga gaming and drawing too i kinda thought we could be friends and i felt we had fun talking but around the end of oct she dispeared and never came back.
just when i got a laptop and my first tablet and stuff i tried to contacted her over and over again through different channels but i never got a answer i didn,t know back then but on monday before the easter weekend i noticed that she blocked me on fb and that i couldn,t contacted her anymore. i was very angry and didn,t understand why i got to be abandon again by someone who seem so nice and creative. i think that blocking someone is the most cowardly way of all to abandon someone it is like runaway from someone who hasn,t done anything bad to you. i got serious after abit of a depression and even wanne jump of the stairs or the window to end this stupid live where i can,t have friends but i didn,t do it in the end it would be pretty dumb to die cause of something like that.
i tried to learn all the anatomy from books and some real live studies and photo,s after switch teachers i started to improve in oct this year.
-In July/Aug of this year i met another girl she didn,t like the same things as me but she still wanted to be friends with me and she would help me to meet more of her friends that did like drawing and anime and stuff but in the end i got abandon again she even told me if i am that lonely to get a dog. a dog and a human friend ARE TO DIFFERENT THINGS!!! yeah i got mad when she said that i think that people like that don,t deserve friends at all in my country i guess people are selffish and don,t wanne help out are people.
in the end i didn,t made any new friends at all and my trust in people has become zero i don,t believe that anyone in this stupid country if wanted to be my friend and that i will always be alone fighting against all the pain and suffering by myself until i die. and yet i do wanne believe that someday that will changes but i don,t know if i ever can trust anyone again.
i am kinda sad that this year has almost ended and everything is still the same i sometimes can,t not even believe that people can make friends so easly and don,t get abandon by them or i am just unlucky all the time.
-anyway back to art i am happy i improvement and i will do even more my best and work hard so that someday i can be a amazing artist too i at least hope so
starting next year i am going live in a apartment by myself so i will be abit busy when 2017 starts
and thats my upload i am sorry that i have only much bad stuff to tell and i don,t even know if many people will read this but good day
cause i am going to tell you abit about real live stuff that happend and about my art
and what will become next year
so lets beginning
let first start about the bad things that happend or at least things that wasnt fun
-As most of you all know by now in sept i switch art teachers cause the one i had before kinda wasn,t really teaching me anything usefull she is probley really good at what she does with adults and stuff but it didn,t work for me thats also why ....
at the first 2 months of the year (when i was struggle to learn abit of the basic anatomy)i got kinda yelled at by my dad saying that i never will be a great artist like artists on deviantart and that they all are born with naturel talent and that it was just impossible to get as good as them.
yeah i was heart broking when i hear him yell at me like that(my parents don,t support me as a artist instead they keep telling me i won,t be as good as all the other artists here) i struggled the next view month not to give up and to keep going with doing art even thought i kinda felt like giving up after what my dad had dumped on me. But when we hit march thats when i really after easter try to get improve my art(i know that i am still not very good at what i do and that probley pro artists still see my as a newbie who,s art sucks) but i am at least glad i improve
-The reason i started to get more serious about art after easter was cause i got abandon just before easter.
Last year 2015 somewhere in July i met this girl at where i work and she like anime and manga gaming and drawing too i kinda thought we could be friends and i felt we had fun talking but around the end of oct she dispeared and never came back.
just when i got a laptop and my first tablet and stuff i tried to contacted her over and over again through different channels but i never got a answer i didn,t know back then but on monday before the easter weekend i noticed that she blocked me on fb and that i couldn,t contacted her anymore. i was very angry and didn,t understand why i got to be abandon again by someone who seem so nice and creative. i think that blocking someone is the most cowardly way of all to abandon someone it is like runaway from someone who hasn,t done anything bad to you. i got serious after abit of a depression and even wanne jump of the stairs or the window to end this stupid live where i can,t have friends but i didn,t do it in the end it would be pretty dumb to die cause of something like that.
i tried to learn all the anatomy from books and some real live studies and photo,s after switch teachers i started to improve in oct this year.
-In July/Aug of this year i met another girl she didn,t like the same things as me but she still wanted to be friends with me and she would help me to meet more of her friends that did like drawing and anime and stuff but in the end i got abandon again she even told me if i am that lonely to get a dog. a dog and a human friend ARE TO DIFFERENT THINGS!!! yeah i got mad when she said that i think that people like that don,t deserve friends at all in my country i guess people are selffish and don,t wanne help out are people.
in the end i didn,t made any new friends at all and my trust in people has become zero i don,t believe that anyone in this stupid country if wanted to be my friend and that i will always be alone fighting against all the pain and suffering by myself until i die. and yet i do wanne believe that someday that will changes but i don,t know if i ever can trust anyone again.
i am kinda sad that this year has almost ended and everything is still the same i sometimes can,t not even believe that people can make friends so easly and don,t get abandon by them or i am just unlucky all the time.
-anyway back to art i am happy i improvement and i will do even more my best and work hard so that someday i can be a amazing artist too i at least hope so
starting next year i am going live in a apartment by myself so i will be abit busy when 2017 starts
and thats my upload i am sorry that i have only much bad stuff to tell and i don,t even know if many people will read this but good day
Commissions open soon maybe?
I still first going to finish up all my other artwork that i barely touched when i was on vacation
so after i finish that i probley going to open up 2 or 3 types of commissions
1 is the icon commissions new desigh maybe
Chibi Icon/Headshots
Price change
Sample
Points 15 for normale Chibi,s (like vampire/human and not furry characters like Kitsune neko etc)
Points 18 for Nekomimi/Inumimi/Kumamimi/Usamimi/Kitsunemimi etc
2 headshot commissions colored digital (no shading maybe open too)
dont have a sample for it yet
and the last on will probley be simple bust shot (no shading just flat colored)
sample
so i am not sure when i will o
Maybe open commissions again?
I,ii probley open them again once i get back from vacation
i am thinking about creating new ones and make them very cheap
May and June Art status update
So i finally have sometime to write this one
in May everything went well and i probley started to enjoy doing art alot
i really do my best to change into a better person or artist whatever you wanne call it
but that takes time plus i think no matter how good or how bad of a artist you are we will all face negative thinking and going through times we don,t leave where moving forward and that we can never draw like the people we look up too it just the sad since artists are mostly very creatieve people in there own way
i be fighting these negative moments alot and sure there are still even times when i feel like then i am the worst artist
April End of the Month Art status update
Late update this time cause i kinda have no idea what to write here so....
uhm i can only say that in mid of march and until somewhere around the mid of april i think
i was very self-doubting and hating my own works again i got tons of criques and even some advice that if the anatomy didn,t work out i such try landscaps instead
but i didn,t accept that type of advice and told the person that i wanted to do anime/manga style no matter what
in the end i wrote her a sorry note but i guess she hates me now or something (thats not good)
So it was very diffcult time for me i was even stressed out alot in april cause of real live stuff
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don't think about the bad things that happened, think about the good things! think positive. if you think you can't think positive, if you think nothing positive happened you will make some people you love very sad...
great artists become great with practice. talent got nothing to do with it. if someone has talent but doesnt do anything with it, he won't become great. if you've got passion to do something, you'll become great.
friends can be irl but also online. from what I've seen you have a ton of online friends XD
and I'm from your country... kinda hurts you saying people from our country are selfish and don't want to help other people...
"in the end I didn't make any new friends at all and my trust in people has become zero"
T-T online friends are friends too....
and maybe one day we can actually meet up, since we're from the same country....
"I don't believe that anyone in this stupid country if wanted to be my friend and that I will always be alone fighting against all the pain and suffering by myself until I die"
T-T I WANNA BE YOUR FRIEND *cries in corner*
online friends are friends too...
there's only one way left if you hit rock bottom, and that's up!
keep it up, this is gonna be a great year! you just have to believe it and if it's not... MAKE IT A GREAT YEAR!
great artists become great with practice. talent got nothing to do with it. if someone has talent but doesnt do anything with it, he won't become great. if you've got passion to do something, you'll become great.
friends can be irl but also online. from what I've seen you have a ton of online friends XD
and I'm from your country... kinda hurts you saying people from our country are selfish and don't want to help other people...
"in the end I didn't make any new friends at all and my trust in people has become zero"
T-T online friends are friends too....
and maybe one day we can actually meet up, since we're from the same country....
"I don't believe that anyone in this stupid country if wanted to be my friend and that I will always be alone fighting against all the pain and suffering by myself until I die"
T-T I WANNA BE YOUR FRIEND *cries in corner*
online friends are friends too...
there's only one way left if you hit rock bottom, and that's up!
keep it up, this is gonna be a great year! you just have to believe it and if it's not... MAKE IT A GREAT YEAR!